Why would anyone want to hear from a dude in a small apartment in the middle of nowhere Virginia? This was a question I wrestled with myself over for some time before finally just pushing the question to the back of my mind and getting to work on this blog. Throughout my life there hasn’t been that many people for me to talk to, you could even call me a loner, but it’s not necessarily by choice. You see, my parents moved here to the middle of nowhere Virginia when I was only a year old. This small town filled with people going about their own business and not even enough of a population of kids my age to afford a school.
So my evenings are mostly filled with socializing with people online, through games, or chats or message boards, which isn’t that bad, but I feel like one in a million others just like me, I needed a platform to stand out, to say my own words and spread my own messages, even if no one else really read them, just a means to make myself matter I suppose. Not that I’m depressed, or that I feel isolated from society, I do get out, I do go to neighboring towns and nearby cities to visit friends, but outside of that, I just want to continue that connection with people, which is why I write.
Even as my fingers dance across the keys right now, I’m not really sure what the topic of my blog is going to be, right now I’m just enjoying the freedom of being able to write what I want. I can talk of local events, but there aren’t any really. I can talk about movies and shows I like, about sports I’m interested in, about the games I play, and the things I’ve experienced in life, but none of them are really coming to mind right now. As I type now, I’m imagine my words like a sonar beep heading out into the world waiting to be picked up, that someone out there will see that I’m here, and announce their presence as well. Perhaps over time, we can encompass the globe with ever extending waves of hello and goodbye.
Or perhaps I’m just approaching this in a totally wrong fashion, and instead of being all metaphysical about it, I should just let humor shine through and start making parodical posts about the current state of society and how crazy things have become in the last ten years or so. No matter how I choose to pursue this ambition, there is a strength in knowing that it’s on my own terms, and that I for once have complete control over what it is I’m presenting to the world. Which is nice, but at the same time, it makes me yearn for an unfiltered version of myself that just says what comes off the top of my head, I guess we’ll have to see who wins out in the next post.