What is there to say about the town I call my home? Besides the fact that the ultimate ambition of those who live here, is to leave here. Those who have chosen to stay are much like the small town folks depicted in TV shows. All about local football, stuck in their own little worlds, thinking about harvests and when the potholes on the main road are going to get filled. Ok, maybe it’s not that bad, but it certainly feels like it at times. It’s hard when there aren’t that many people around your age bracket who are interested in the same things, and without a working internet connection, I may have been driven mad by this point.
It’s strange when you get the thought in your head that no one around you operates the same way you do. That they don’t see the world the same, that there’s no ambition. As much as I love my parents, they have seemed to resign themselves to living in this place, this way for many more years to come, probably the rest of their lives, I know I couldn’t do it. No matter what lies ahead for me, I hope that it’s away from this place. I have family in other areas of the country, and being at an age of just thinking about what to do after high school, the prospects of moving out with one of them to pursue life somewhere else seems more and more enticing.
Until that point though, I need to find ways to pass my time here, and to make it to that point. I mean that more mentally than physically, but hopefully you get that idea by now. I’m not crazy, I don’t seek an end to things, and I’m not some loner who sits in the basement thinking about how the world will pay, I’m just a bored teen who isn’t into handling that boredom through alcohol, parties or other activities of that nature. I have always seen myself as someone who will accomplish something, I just have no idea at this point what that is.
Maybe this blog will blow up and my name will grace the covers of internet pages across the world, or more realistically, maybe a couple people in my situation will read this and perhaps we can start a conversation based on our mutual boredom. Though, I will be ok with that admittedly. I don’t need something big and fantastic in life, what I seek is something out of the norm. For now though, I’m content with just taking some time out of my day to put a few pages down, and to escape into the nothingness that is creativity, to create something new out of something blank, something insignificant, something that you would miss if you blinked, see how I came all full circle with the title? Isn’t that clever? Ok ok, I’ll end this now before you totally lose hope in this blog.